Nauseous.
...since few days ago. Is there something wrong with my body? Or is it because my emotions are starting to get the worst of me? Both things combined together caused this. Best bet. I'm back to my old habit, how disappointing. I'm disappointed in myself but I just can't help it, I suddenly had the urge to do it. Doing it makes me feel much more free than my current state.
So I thought I could be indifferent, it was pointless, I was still very affected. No matter how mean you treat me, no matter how much you use me, manipulate me, I still can't get pissed. Well, maybe I am pissed but I just can't bring myself to stay away from you. It has just dawned on me that I've liked you so much for such a long time till the extent, .. I think I'm in love with you.
I'm not sure what your reasons are but I'm pretty sure one of them is your self-ego. Before this I've been warned that you're this kinda person, so why am I still so disappointed that you're acting like this towards me? I should not be affected at all, right? I'm no one to be affected. It was painful to see you cry over trivial matters, I know for you they're not trivial. If only I could be the one next to you when you cry. Unfortunately that will never happen, all because of your character. It's too hard for me to read.
You said you miss me, is that even true? Or do you tell that to everyone? Although you'll never have the chance to read this, I hope that you do realize that there will always be this fool by your side. The fool who will always be supporting you no matter how wrong you are. Call me bias, I don't care. It's fucking stupid but I just can't help it. Seeing you today has made me realize how fucking important you are in my life even though I would not have the chance to be with you. Is this unrequited love? I'm not so sure myself because you said those three words to me before. Bewildered.
...since few days ago. Is there something wrong with my body? Or is it because my emotions are starting to get the worst of me? Both things combined together caused this. Best bet. I'm back to my old habit, how disappointing. I'm disappointed in myself but I just can't help it, I suddenly had the urge to do it. Doing it makes me feel much more free than my current state.
So I thought I could be indifferent, it was pointless, I was still very affected. No matter how mean you treat me, no matter how much you use me, manipulate me, I still can't get pissed. Well, maybe I am pissed but I just can't bring myself to stay away from you. It has just dawned on me that I've liked you so much for such a long time till the extent, .. I think I'm in love with you.
I'm not sure what your reasons are but I'm pretty sure one of them is your self-ego. Before this I've been warned that you're this kinda person, so why am I still so disappointed that you're acting like this towards me? I should not be affected at all, right? I'm no one to be affected. It was painful to see you cry over trivial matters, I know for you they're not trivial. If only I could be the one next to you when you cry. Unfortunately that will never happen, all because of your character. It's too hard for me to read.
You said you miss me, is that even true? Or do you tell that to everyone? Although you'll never have the chance to read this, I hope that you do realize that there will always be this fool by your side. The fool who will always be supporting you no matter how wrong you are. Call me bias, I don't care. It's fucking stupid but I just can't help it. Seeing you today has made me realize how fucking important you are in my life even though I would not have the chance to be with you. Is this unrequited love? I'm not so sure myself because you said those three words to me before. Bewildered.
